The eternal quest

I can only investigate my thinking… memory… self… ( there really isn’t a good word for all of it… )

II know there is a lot of fun science to look at but it doesn’t help me in the investigation… or observation or whatever we call it… watching, listening…

I do find that all that chatter in my head is looking for, or looking to achieve, something similar to security… or safety… pretty much like the people I see, meet and hear out here in the outer environment do… its like, “The eternal quest”, or something, “The eternal seeking…”

… if I have a wife, this job… if I understand consciousness… if I know what my purpose is…  All the same search… same goal… Never met, reached or fulfilled… besides, Its a tough row to hoe…

Its exhausting