This morning, first thing, I thought about something and felt sad. This wasn’t something that would make every person sad. Not something like… what? …the ravages of war or human trafficking? Not some universally sad thing. This was a thing that made me sad.
I sat in this sad place and looked at it deeply. Thinking, where is the sad coming from? The thing was a decision I made in a relationship. The decision was to end the relationship and it was based on the value system I’d developed at the time. This thing is probably similar to things others have done, probably everybody. Who hasn’t done things they regret?
But this is about the sadness. Where does the sad part come from? Can I decide not to feel sad?
With my current value system, all that I’ve decided to assign importance, my decision about that childhood relationship would be different.
With my current value system, all that I’ve decided to assign importance, the memory of my decision is accompanied by regret and sadness.
I have things I’ve decided to assign importance to. This changes my actions. Take away the assigned value, alter the actions. Is sadness is an action? It’s active. Is the action, the activity of sadness, based on a decision? Is any emotional activity universal?