A Crowded Mind

from a conversation…

Okay, so we are aware of the conditioning (thought program) that was formed out of, and operates from, this “fear of some possible future” … My aim, if we want to name it something for this discussion, is to dismantle the program to the point, or state, where it falls to pieces…

This isn’t necessarily the way it is: but the way I see these ‘thought balls’ is like they are little personalities… they want something… they have devised a plan to get what they want and they have devised ways in which they think they can stay safe from whatever it is they fear…

They were originally formed through accepting ideas introduced by others… Schools, religions, parents, other kids, people on TV… or they learned from experience… Things like, People can’t be trusted, something bad is going to happen, it’s easier and safer to be dishonest, or honest, depending on the collection of experience…

Anyway now I share my Self with these Fragment Selves.

We are like a large family in a tiny apartment… there is no privacy, no time to be alone and quiet (for long). So, considering this scenario of the crowded apartment… how would I best go about dealing with all these other people and their personalities, desires, fears and so on?

It’s not like I invited them to share my room… they just showed up. How would we best deal with our unwanted, interfering, thoughts in this apartment situation?

This is not a “You should”. Nor is it a “This is the way it is”. It’s only the way I see it today and how I go about dealing with it (them) today…

Now, at this moment, having at least got the apartment and these people to some manageable state, I’m looking into what it is in Us that so readily creates these fragments… I may be able to dismantle that too… We’ll see

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