Years ago I started the journey away from “My Life Of Addiction”. Looking back on it now I see that I went from a life as an addict to a life in addiction recovery in an instant. One minute I was sitting on a bed in a detox facility thinking, “I really don’t want to do this anymore”. I said to myself and “Everything That Is” that I was willing to do anything not to end up here again.
Not aware of it at the time, my life changed and from that point in time I went from addict to addict in recovery. I attribute this mainly to three things:
- I had had enough. I was out of energy and out of ideas
- I practiced (unknowingly) a universal, or spiritual, principle
- I made contact with a higher power, or power greater than my “self” alone
The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous says, “A lack of power was our dilemma…”. Can addicts get free of addiction without assistance from a power greater than themselves? I don’t think we can exist apart from a power greater than ourselves.
This is not to say I believe the religious stories of God and creation. I think, as someone stated, “Religion is the business that replaced spirituality”. I define spirit as life energy. So my higher power might be called, “All Life Energy”, “Everything That Is”, “The Entirety Of The Universe”, and so on.
I – am a manifestation of that life energy. So I might say I appealed, or connected with my higher self. However one wants to picture it for right now is right – for right now.
In recovery I found I needed three things to get happier: A good diet, better data and some type of direction to move into.
The diet is better. I don’t eat stuff that makes me crazy. The data is ongoing, replacing and discarded things about Life and people when I find I have information about them that is faulty – which most of it was.
The direction part was, and is, tougher to get a handle on.