Fear: Recognition and ResolutionI've been looking closely at dreams lately. A by product of paying attention. I really don't write what I decide would be good to write about. I guess the generic description of where I get my topics is - they just come to me. I don't write anything that I don't feel compelled to write. Most of the time these topics arrive in the morning. They are there when I begin the transition from sleep to awake. Today that happened at three something AM. Not a good time to, all of a sudden, have something you know is important start taking shape. But, If I don't stay focused on it, it might fade away. So this morning's realization was - I'm scared.
Of what? Everything. What does that mean? It means that every move I make, every decision, every idea, everything I choose to believe...literally everything is tainted by the state of fear. At the biological level it means my body is dying faster. This, dying faster, is evidenced from sound scientific experiment. See "The biology of belief" by Bruce Lipton. It also means that I write differently. Has to. Everything I do is affected. I know that I use language, or don't use language, that I normally use when talking with friends. Part of that is out of consideration for who may be reading this stuff. Doesn't do any good to run someone off. Part of it is I'm afraid it might "Get me in trouble". I'm not sure how. It's just a build up of ideas grown out of past experience. All emotional undercurrents, all programs, are built up over time. That time may be 40 years, or 40 seconds. Either way - it's there. All to often it goes unnoticed. Running in the background.
This, going unnoticed, is another aspect of living in a state of fear. Not only do I believe stories I wouldn't believe otherwise - I make up stories to soothe, pacify, justify, fortify: anything that will bring some sort of solace. I don't know every single manifestation of fear possible in every single human. I can know mine. It just came to me that writing about this is like going from a recitation on recovering to a live broadcast from the front lines. Like having the camera following me through a struggle with schizophrenia. "Today we'll follow Doug as he attempts to separate the real from the unreal and resolve the conditions that for so many years have made his life unbearable...". Action.
A few days (early 2009) ago I posted an article on fear of the fifth step. I stated that I would share my fifth step to anyone. This is a fifth step. Actually it's more of a continuing - fourth, fifth, sixth and seventh. I find that I do all those steps pretty much simultaneously. I always do the fifth step last. By the time I get around to talking about it I've moved through the process. I still do a fifth step type routine. I do it because I think it counts toward getting issues resolved. I don't know what would happen if I left it out - so I don't leave it out. So far it's worked. Same goes for all the other "Ingredients in my recovery recipe". I found a recipe, a method, a system, that works. I'm not going to start trying some thing different. I might add something. I'm not going to chance taking something out.
I could do a list. I might. I might do it so I can look at it from another viewpoint. At the moment the "condition" is right here. I've got it where I want it. Now I need to move on it. So I'm scared of everything, "Scared of my friend Rosalinda dying because it will change my life, scared to quit smoking because it has always made me crazy, scared of getting in fights, not being accepted, not succeeding in my ventures and still scared of being lost. None of this is new. The good thing is, none of it is to the degree it used to be. It's not as severe. The important thing, to me, is I've come understand if it's there at all - in any way, shape or form - I'm suffering from it. My overall quality of living is diminished. It's cutting me off - I'm cutting me off - from the best possible state of being. I want the best possible state of being - so I go after what's blocking it. I'm after all that residual fear lingering beneath the surface.
It's times and situations like these that I have to admit a lack of power. I think this is what the founders talked about in AA when they talked about powerlessness. It's not a total, all inclusive, powerlessness that leads to dependency, but a lack of power to resolve a condition with out some sort of aid from life. Life can help me. "Everything That Is" will give me what I need to make myself more compatible with "happy". I want more happy. All the happy I can get. It's not selfish. Without happy - nobodies happy. The happier I get the more happy gets and the more get happy. So - am I going to ask a higher power to help me? Hell yes - I already did. It's been part of the system that's led me to where I am. I like where I am way more than where I was.
Different Methods of Anxiety Treatment(lost the link but thought I'd include it) There are many different types of anxiety disorders, each of which requires a specific anxiety treatment. Some of the different types that commonly affect a large number of people include:
* panic disorder
* obsessive-compulsive disorder
* generalized anxiety disorder
* social anxiety
* phobias of different items, situations, and locations ( See: Healing Audio, For Healthy Minds & Bodies )
There is no one anxiety treatment that works for all of these types, which is why a medical doctor has to assess the patient to determine the type of anxiety he/she is suffering from. While the symptoms of anxiety may be the same, this does not mean that the same treatment will be effective for different individuals. Anxiety is a normal reaction to stress and it is possible that no treatment is needed.
It is quite common for people to become worried or anxious about a specific situation. They do know what they are worried about and recognize the symptoms of anxiety for what they are. In this way, they are able to deal with their feelings and symptoms without needing any anxiety treatment from a professional. It is when the anxiety develops into something more serious that has an effect on the patient's quality of life that a person has to seek treatment.
The doctor or psychiatrist discusses the symptoms with the patient and may even interview the family of the patient to get further information. It is essential to try to identify the root cause of the anxiety in order to determine the most effective method of treatment. Patients who experience episodes of panic disorder are not typically able to pinpoint anything in particular that triggers these episodes that strike without warning.
Choosing the method of anxiety treatment for such a patient is usually done with a consultation between the doctor and the patient. In some cases, medication is used as a short term treatment and the patient is reassessed at regular intervals. Antidepressants are the most commonly prescribed medications for this type of anxiety. Patients with obsessive compulsive disorder have an uncontrollable need to repeat an action over and over.
They also have disturbing thoughts, which are called obsessions. Medication is often prescribed to help the patient feel better about different situations and to help control the thoughts. However, the most effective anxiety treatment for this disorder has been cognitive behavior therapy in which the patient is exposed to the source of the obsession and learns how to respond in a healthy manner. This treatment helps to retrain the brain to respond in a different manner to "the places that scare us" the person no longer feels compelled to repeat certain actions.
Anxiety treatment for generalized anxiety disorder involves teaching the patients techniques of self-help in which they can recognize the symptoms of panic and anxiety and calm themselves, thus reducing the symptoms. The treatment can consist of practicing daily relaxation techniques, making changes to one's lifestyle and practicing meditation. There are also three types of medication prescribed for this type of anxiety, which include anti-anxiety drugs and antidepressants.
Psychological counseling is used as anxiety treatment for those suffering from social anxiety. At times, depending on how debilitating the disorder is in a patient, antidepressants may be prescribed to help reduce the symptoms of anxiety. Phobias are usually treated with exposure therapy in which the patient is exposed to the source of the fear with increasing frequency until the patient is able to cope when presented with the object, situation, or location.